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posted on Sunday, January 19, 2014 @ Sunday, January 19, 2014 | permalink

Well I've nothing much to blog about today , but just a quick respond to my ask.fm

* It's an answer + a post combi LOL *

Here's the qns :

My respond :

When I say I love him , what I am really saying is : I really love you with all my heart and soul , I've never wanted to leave you and yes , I've seen your darkness but I'm still here to stay .
Sometimes I may say " if you want me to , I will . "

But deep down inside , I'll never leave .

No , I'll never have the heart to do so because I promised to stay & love him , no matter what .

Hence , I'm never leaving .

I don't really compare ex with ex ( if that was the qn )

I don't like being compared too so why should I ?

If one should compare to their ex , why not date their ex ?

If your ex if better than your current that you have to compare your ex like

" My ex always do -thisthisthis- , why you never ? "

Please go back and date your ex since he/she is better .

Since you've accepted him/her as your partner , accept it .

Unless it's like in a positive form like -

" oh my , non of my ex has ever thought of this for me before .. "

or something like that . HAHAHA .

I'm bad at giving examples . LOL .

" Date someone you would want to marry in the future "

We all have our idea relationship , I must agree with you but

you won't really go with that idea once you're together with someone

Selfish thoughts maybe , but not selfish idea of partner .

I mean , he's my type .

Even if he's not , so what

If we click , then go with it & accept him .

He's not my ideal gentle and cool-tempered type of partner

but I accept him .

( hence , both hot-tempered people go crazy even faster LOL )

People DO change a little as they get more comfy with each other .

Or maybe we're just too used to each other .

Like , the thing they would usually do when they start chasing you , stopped holding their anger and all the small little things .

Change is not significant but noticeable .

" I want you forever , forever and always though the good and the bad and the ugly "

That's what we used to sing together .

And yeap , I'll want him forever, though the good and the bad and the ugly ,

grow old together , and always remember for the happy or sad or whatever ,

still love each other , forever and always .

( Parachute : forever and always )

We all can't promise that we can be there for each other in the future ,

but now , I just wanna do everything I can for him .

It's not that I am crazy for him , okay maybe a little

but the main point is ,

I don't want to end up regretting

" Why didn't i do this/that ? "

I don't mind chasing him till one day we're over ,

I've never thought of us having to part but we can never know .
I just want to do whatever I can for today , talk as much as we can even that we have work .

Just anything , everything for him .

While I can before someone elses does it for me .

Not gonna let anyone do my job , never .

We all WILL change after some time ,

but I'll accept that

you

are still you .

Time to sleep , I can't even see what I'm typing . HAH .

Night everyone .

posted on Saturday, January 18, 2014 @ Saturday, January 18, 2014 | permalink

So few day ago :

Had dinner with colleague at Poulet & they were like

" you want order chicken or duck ? "

你要叫鸡还是叫鸭

But they gave me feel that they were jokingly saying those in sexual terms or so .

HAHAHA .

So we had ox-tail , duck leg ( I think ) ,chicken , salad and mash potato .

Overall was fine la .

The food : It's really nice , standard range is around 10$ to 20$

The place : I would say not bad . quite well lit . LOL .

Would I go again ? Yes , on next monthsary -smirk-

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Poulèt

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Marutama Ramen (The Central)

Went there last week with love for dinner .

Must say the soup is really delicious but the spring onions ruin my noodles LOL .

I'm not a spring onion ( or onion spring ) lover so .. ya .

THE EGG IS SO NICE (*A*)

Salty though . LOL .

Price around 12$ to 18$ , with limited selection of ramen.

The food : Prefers the soup and egg more than other ingredients , HAH .

The place : Kinda small , had to queue a lit though .

I'll go there , for ramen only . ( Well they don't serve rice . )

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& TODAY ( like finally ) ,

wen t out with love to eat , walk and .. walk . LOL.

I'm so clingy (":

Anyway initially we wanted to eat at Porn's but it's close .

I was like :

YES AH NEVER OPEN .

In my mind of course

because i kind of find it waste of money to eat at at restaurants .

I LOVE thai food , but why should i spend money eating thai food outside when i could had asked my mom to cook it ? HAH .

But I wanna try Nakhon Kitchen at kovan there .

The line is REALLY DAMN LONG when people start queuing .

I really want to know if it's really THAT nice that people must queue so long just to eat there .

Hah .

That asshole made me wanna get Timberland boots .

It looks so nice when i put it on (":

BUT IT'S LIKE 299$ ...........

So expensive y'know .

My award money just like that gone ?

Okay gonne sleep now .

I don't know what I'm doing , say or type when i'm sleepy .

Night all .

Some ass got game then don't wanna take picture with me alr .

Tried to sneakily take picture of b when he's sleeping , but failed lol .

When was the last time i took picture and managed to smiled so nicely ? HAH.

posted on Tuesday, January 14, 2014 @ Tuesday, January 14, 2014 | permalink

Not sure I'm feeling so upset .
I'm just stuck here crying , feeling so down.

Studies , work , relationship .
Study when ? After work or part time ?

What 'bout relationship ? He wouldn't havr much time left for me . Maybe not even a day , a dinner , a week or a month .
I don't want that to happen .
By then , you'll fall in love with someone you think that is more mature & someone you think that'll love you more - bur obviously no one loves you more than me , excluding blood related .

I don't want things to drift away .
But seriously it's only Jan and its so bad already , how worst can it go as time passes ?

I've really no idea what to do .
I want to study , but I don't want be shown a black face every morning and get reminded that I'm using my parents money , i'm wasting they time a money , they don't earn alot , other people smarter etc .
I want to work and pay for my own studies , but I don't want to be behind people . Don't really mind , but I'll still mind .

Like my colleague said -
you can study later , but when it's time to study , who will want to study when you can have cash on hand ?
I'm in a dilemma .
Upset , angry with myself . Can't control my emotions since I let my emotions eat me .

No idea what to do anymore .

posted on Sunday, January 12, 2014 @ Sunday, January 12, 2014 | permalink

Being in a relationship isn't about how long you guys are together ,

it's about the time and love we delicate to each other.

We all will be like " ya ya , i know . "

But do we really do that ?

To me -

The time we've been together matters to me , right now .

Finally my brains are no longer younger and has decided to

settle down in love , and not fool around .

I , I always thought that being in a relationship is an easy thing .

Like giving each other your time , love and companionship .

It WAS easy when you're still school : you can easily see each other ,

but now with work , different office hours ,

we spend lesser time with each other .

Love would always say " But i just saw you yesterday [ for dinner ] "

I just can't get that ,

we are having lesser time to see each other .

we only see each other for dinner , that short 2 to 3 hours like

once or twice on weekdays , then maybe go out on a Saturday .

Maybe next time , not even weekends .

Woman and man are different .

Most of us want affection , attention .

But long enough , we'll start to want freedom -

start drawing away from our love ones .

Maybe then a heated argument that used to be fixed so easily with a kiss, hug or phonecall ,

ends up with being strangers , again .

I just can't help feeling a little insecure at times .

We all don't like being insecure .

I tried to feel better by talking to love but ,

it doesn't helps much .

It's like , the warmth just bounce off .

It's just not strong enough to make you feel so warm that you wanna fall into his arms .

To me ,

It's all the little thing that he does that makes me feel loved .

Maybe he doesn't know .

Like holding my hand , a little tight hug , a pull towards him so that strangers can't touch me and so ,

I appreciate it all .

I miss the past us .

Where things were much easier ,

easier than sitting in office , waiting for your messages ..

Where those days i spend my afternoons with you ,

be it studying , eating , or walking with you .

I love it all.

And still loved to .

I love you & miss you .

Don't ever take someone for granted .

Like it goes ,

give a girl all your attention and love , before someone does it for you .

By then , it's your lose already .

For you've lost someone that loved you .

x .

posted on Sunday, January 5, 2014 @ Sunday, January 05, 2014 | permalink

Finally i have the time to post something .

I'm stuck here for around 2 months plus with a old thinkpad , sigh .
well maybe it's true that i can't work as admin and should had just worked at somewhere which offers more interaction .
everyday i'm just trying hard to not to doze off and file as much emails as i can .

My experience here ?
Honestly it's not bad but too boring for me .
I'm just secretly blogging over here . LOL
Can't imagine that i'm gonna do this every single damn day for 2 months plus .
Well , the people here are more of the stricter type i guess .
More not-so-friendly type , esp the man here .
Yeap , man .
I'm the youngest here .
oh what to do .

okay finally i get to at least smile to the damn supervisor . LOL
If not i'll feel damn awkward if i had to take leave . LOLOLOL .

sometimes i think why am i such an idiot .
Almost everyone here is at least decades older than me lol .