This week , I feel like I cry so easily .
Maybe I am just lacking sleep .

My body just can't recover on it's own .
" your body is not working well , "
Said those voices in my head .

Every night I just can't sleep .
Those voices just keeps thinking , talking or singing .
I feel like as if either one of the days I'll be admitted to the hospital .

It's as if this year , my immune system cannot fight of bacterial on it's own .

I need sleep , I know my body is tired .
But every night I scream in my head to keep those voices quiet
-it never works .

It drives me crazy .
All these voices , illness .
& now , I just get to sensitive that I could cry so easily .
For no damn reason .

Cough , left lower jaw's pain come and go .
The thing is also , I only keep falling sick when I got my part time job .
Maybe the office was too cold for me .

I just ... feel so horrible .
I just want to cry so badly but I can't find a reason to .

And ,
Day by day I'm getting uglier .
I just want to scratch my face , just tear that ugly face off .

Nobody understands me .
Nobody knows my pain .
No one will .