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posted on Monday, October 21, 2013 @ Monday, October 21, 2013 | permalink

Instead of study

I'm gasping for air

Drowning ,

In the sea of sadness

I feel so cold and numb

I couldn't feel you anywhere

I'm just so scared you'll leave me

Just so scared I annoy you.

I know I do.

Everyone know.

And today ,

I came to realize he was right.

It's an disgrace.

To hit him in public ,

Even if I'm playfully hitting .

I think it hurts a lot.

I cause him to feel disgraced ,

And I'm the cause of his disgrace ,

Hence I'm disgraceful.

I shouldn't say I'll leave.

It'll probably make him so angry ,

Or he'll just say " leave lo " .

No.

That shouldn't happen.

Maybe I shouldn't be clingy towards him

Anymore

Maybe then I'll learn y lesson , slowly

For being so clingy.

Now I'm suffering inside

I couldn't cry

I couldn't smile

I stopped eating what I was eating

I actually hurt someone I love ,

Who am I gonna hurt next ?

Sometimes I think I shouldn't be alive

Cause I'm a waste of resource

Troublemaking and annoying to everyone

I feel so numb.

I want to cry but I can't

What should I do ?

I should be studying now

But the motivation is now gone

I tied not to spoil the relationship between us.

But it seems like almost single day

I spoil our relationship

Create tension

I wished we could be like last time too

But it's not easy

At all.